Currently Listening Exit Through Fear By Society 1 10 see related

I'm mad as hell.

fuck you.

I know you know who the fuck you are.

basterd I was ok I didn't hate you. 

I could've kept it civil...

But you pushed yourself a little to far in to my personal life.

Watch your fucking back.  

Because I'm about to return the knife you left in mine.

It's only 7:30 but it feels like 10:00

I've got nothing to think about but Tasha....

I've tried not to think of her... For even 5mins of the day in the hopes that maybe I won't miss her as much. I've failed in every attempt.

Hmmm.... I'm getting really out of shape. I've been to tired to run or box....

I used to box like an hour a day... But after awhile you lose all that anger taht keeps you there... Beating the fuck out of a cotten filled bag.

forget running if I did that I wouldn't even be able to get out of bed in the morning. I'd be so worn out.

High School is almost over.... It's sliping away all to quickly.

So here I am everyday beating my brains trying to figure out what I'm good at... What I wanna do for the rest of my life. The answer to that just keeps changeing.... It's to early to tell for me.... But then again I really don't wanna wait to long to make up my mind. But it's hard to tell when the moment is. I know I'll know about a month after it's already come and gone. 

everything about me is changing again. But it's not a bad thing...

I miss all my friends... I'm sorry I never have the time for you guys. I know I always said my firends would never fall second. But I guess thats whats been happinging. I'm sorry. I love you all. I hope you guys know that.

Hey,

Today is a good day... I got a job. Mcdonalds  

Took me long enough you think?

I think so.

School back in... It's going good I thought I'd kill my teachers on the 1st day back. But it's not so bad. It's kinda nice really.

Hmmm.... I don't really know what to say....

-bye

Just drank a bottle of NyQuil.... 177ml if you really wanna know.

Don't know what happened I thought I was fine... I guess not.

I feel like a happy fucking time bomb... Every time I tick I rip a little at the seems.... But I think I've just fallen apart....

I took some pills don't know what they were... My face hurts... If you've ever done what i've just done I'm sure you knowthe feeling....

My body is falling asleep even though every other part of me is crying...

Because I know I'll wake up again tomorrow... why does that make me so fucking sad? I couldn't tell you even if I myself wanted to know the answer...

Still I'm trying to dearly to stay awake... sleeping feels like a bad idea.

But then again I so badly a second ago wanted to just sleep away every thing thats just happened.

I hate myself for not being a stronger person...

I'm one of the emo kids I've some to hate so badly....

But I hate them because I'm just like them....

So here I am an Emo little fucking bitch.